1 00:00:05,965 --> 00:00:09,383 Emotion can dictate how we see the world. 2 00:00:09,384 --> 00:00:12,886 Excitement, for instance, can make everything appear brighter. 3 00:00:12,887 --> 00:00:14,763 Life in Technicolor. 4 00:00:14,764 --> 00:00:18,767 ♪ Kissin' your lips in the morning ♪ 5 00:00:18,768 --> 00:00:23,439 ♪ And maybe it's for the last time ♪ 6 00:00:23,440 --> 00:00:25,441 What are you thinking? 7 00:00:25,442 --> 00:00:27,776 Nothing. Why? 8 00:00:27,777 --> 00:00:29,570 I just know your thinking face. 9 00:00:29,571 --> 00:00:31,488 You do it like 99% of the time-- 10 00:00:31,489 --> 00:00:33,490 sometimes even when you're sleeping. 11 00:00:33,491 --> 00:00:35,826 Not that I watch you sleep or anything. 12 00:00:35,827 --> 00:00:42,458 I am thinking that we shouldn't tell anyone at work about this. 13 00:00:42,459 --> 00:00:44,626 Don't worry. I'm with you. 14 00:00:44,627 --> 00:00:46,462 I've got enough drama in my life anyway. 15 00:00:46,463 --> 00:00:48,464 Mm. Exactly. 16 00:00:48,465 --> 00:00:50,132 If there is one thing 17 00:00:50,133 --> 00:00:53,135 that spreads faster than a virus in a hospital, it's gossip. 18 00:00:53,136 --> 00:00:54,803 This is fun. 19 00:00:54,804 --> 00:00:57,850 Uncomplicated fun. 20 00:00:58,809 --> 00:01:00,809 Let's keep it that way. 21 00:01:00,810 --> 00:01:05,272 ♪ You get your case from the closet ♪ 22 00:01:05,273 --> 00:01:08,611 We still have an hour before rounds. 23 00:01:09,570 --> 00:01:13,280 When you're in a good mood, colors look more vivid. 24 00:01:13,281 --> 00:01:15,115 They're even a form of expression. 25 00:01:15,116 --> 00:01:18,328 For instance, we say red is the color of passion. 26 00:01:20,664 --> 00:01:25,167 Or a patient might describe themselves as feeling blue. 27 00:01:25,168 --> 00:01:27,461 But it's more than just a metaphor. 28 00:01:27,462 --> 00:01:30,422 Color can also cause emotions in us. 29 00:01:30,423 --> 00:01:33,342 Maybe the yellow of a sunrise gives a person hope. 30 00:01:33,343 --> 00:01:35,427 Someone woke up on the right side of the bed. 31 00:01:35,428 --> 00:01:37,179 Whose bed do you think it was? 32 00:01:37,180 --> 00:01:39,973 Can you go two seconds without thinking about sex? 33 00:01:39,974 --> 00:01:41,350 Wolf does have a glow. 34 00:01:41,351 --> 00:01:43,018 Yeah. Come on, Ericka. Don't be jealous. 35 00:01:43,019 --> 00:01:45,270 The guy clearly got laid. Good for him. 36 00:01:45,271 --> 00:01:47,105 At least someone around here 37 00:01:47,106 --> 00:01:49,191 has got enough time for a little lovin'. 38 00:01:49,192 --> 00:01:51,693 But imagine a world without color. 39 00:01:51,694 --> 00:01:53,862 How would it make us feel? 40 00:01:53,863 --> 00:01:56,449 How could we feel? 41 00:01:57,785 --> 00:01:59,868 Josh, hi. Um, it's me. 42 00:01:59,869 --> 00:02:02,704 I think I just missed your call, uh, again. 43 00:02:02,705 --> 00:02:04,540 So... you're right. 44 00:02:04,541 --> 00:02:07,168 This probably would be easier if I had a cellphone. 45 00:02:08,420 --> 00:02:11,046 Anyway, uh, I hope that you're having fun 46 00:02:11,047 --> 00:02:14,007 at the conference... if that's even possible. 47 00:02:14,008 --> 00:02:18,053 Um, just, uh, call me back whenever you can. 48 00:02:18,054 --> 00:02:20,764 I'm here, okay? Bye. 49 00:02:20,765 --> 00:02:23,225 Dr. Wolf. Hello. 50 00:02:23,226 --> 00:02:25,936 I'm Angelika Delaney with the Brooks-Everett Gallery. 51 00:02:25,937 --> 00:02:27,688 We spoke on the phone. - Of course. 52 00:02:27,689 --> 00:02:29,400 Please have a seat, Ms. Delaney. 53 00:02:31,819 --> 00:02:33,902 I can't express how grateful I am to you 54 00:02:33,903 --> 00:02:35,654 for making the time to see me. 55 00:02:35,655 --> 00:02:38,031 Dr. Stewart at Presbyterian West says you are one of the best. 56 00:02:38,032 --> 00:02:39,825 I'm sure she said more than that, 57 00:02:39,826 --> 00:02:42,411 and in more colorful language if I know Dr. Stewart at all. 58 00:02:42,412 --> 00:02:44,371 How can I help you? - Oh, it's not for me. 59 00:02:44,372 --> 00:02:47,499 I'm here on behalf of my client, Gabriel Ferguson. 60 00:02:47,500 --> 00:02:51,378 He's one of the most talented artists I've ever worked with. 61 00:02:51,379 --> 00:02:54,131 But out of nowhere, he has stopped painting. 62 00:02:54,132 --> 00:02:56,133 He says it's his head. Migraines. 63 00:02:56,134 --> 00:02:58,176 I don't know. I can't get a full story. 64 00:02:58,177 --> 00:03:00,512 Gabe's never been great about letting people in. 65 00:03:00,513 --> 00:03:04,099 Here. I will write down the address where you can find him. 66 00:03:04,100 --> 00:03:07,603 Oh, uh, I have so many patients here who need my attention. 67 00:03:07,604 --> 00:03:09,855 So if you could arrange to have him come see me-- 68 00:03:09,856 --> 00:03:11,984 I've tried. 69 00:03:13,694 --> 00:03:16,112 He won't talk to me. 70 00:03:17,907 --> 00:03:19,364 Why would he listen to me? 71 00:03:19,365 --> 00:03:22,242 I've done my homework, Dr. Wolf. 72 00:03:22,243 --> 00:03:25,078 I don't bring just anyone to my clients. 73 00:03:25,079 --> 00:03:26,830 You care about what you do, 74 00:03:26,831 --> 00:03:29,333 and from what I hear, it's your craft. 75 00:03:29,334 --> 00:03:32,419 My client respects a man with a craft. 76 00:03:32,420 --> 00:03:34,087 Please. 77 00:03:34,088 --> 00:03:36,298 He has a show at the end of the month, 78 00:03:36,299 --> 00:03:39,802 and if he doesn't deliver, it will be the end of his career. 79 00:03:55,110 --> 00:03:57,237 Hello? 80 00:04:00,074 --> 00:04:02,450 Anybody here? 81 00:04:21,720 --> 00:04:23,597 My paintings aren't for touching. 82 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:27,557 I-I'm so sorry. I didn't mean-- 83 00:04:27,558 --> 00:04:29,518 Did the gallery send you? Was it Angelika? 84 00:04:29,519 --> 00:04:31,353 God. That woman is like a dog with a bone. 85 00:04:31,354 --> 00:04:34,481 I'm not with the gallery. My name is Dr. Oliver Wolf. 86 00:04:34,482 --> 00:04:36,274 I'm a neurologist at Bronx General. 87 00:04:36,275 --> 00:04:38,485 Ms. Delaney sought me out. - Look. 88 00:04:38,486 --> 00:04:40,737 I'm fine. 89 00:04:40,738 --> 00:04:43,407 I'm sure there are people who actually need your help, 90 00:04:43,408 --> 00:04:45,200 but that's not me. 91 00:04:45,201 --> 00:04:46,994 Sorry you wasted your time. 92 00:04:46,995 --> 00:04:48,328 I understand. 93 00:04:48,329 --> 00:04:50,497 But it would bother me if I didn't ask. 94 00:04:50,498 --> 00:04:52,541 Ms. Delaney mentioned the headaches? 95 00:04:52,542 --> 00:04:54,459 Haven't you ever told a white lie, Doctor? 96 00:04:54,460 --> 00:04:58,048 I was just trying to buy a little extra time with my work. 97 00:04:59,717 --> 00:05:02,009 O-Okay. Um... 98 00:05:02,010 --> 00:05:05,388 I'm sorry that I-I interrupted your day. 99 00:05:08,642 --> 00:05:10,894 Are-- Are these both yours? 100 00:05:12,271 --> 00:05:17,901 That's from a while back-- Paris, 1994. 101 00:05:18,861 --> 00:05:22,070 Blue bananas. Interesting. 102 00:05:22,071 --> 00:05:24,407 Weren't you leaving? 103 00:05:29,079 --> 00:05:31,372 How long have you been color-blind? 104 00:05:33,959 --> 00:05:36,752 "Color-blind," he said, 105 00:05:36,753 --> 00:05:39,421 as if I just mistake red for green. 106 00:05:39,422 --> 00:05:43,342 Try all I see is black and white. 107 00:05:44,428 --> 00:05:46,887 Everything's like burnt charcoal. 108 00:05:46,888 --> 00:05:50,934 So unless you're here to tell me you can fix that... 109 00:05:52,186 --> 00:05:54,979 ...there's the door. 110 00:06:04,990 --> 00:06:08,202 {\an8}I miss everything about him. 111 00:06:09,119 --> 00:06:10,744 {\an8}The way he smelled, 112 00:06:10,745 --> 00:06:13,789 {\an8}the way he made me feel like the only woman in the world. 113 00:06:13,790 --> 00:06:18,545 {\an8}I keep trying to pinpoint where it all went wrong. 114 00:06:19,338 --> 00:06:23,840 {\an8}I-I was too eager, too available. 115 00:06:23,841 --> 00:06:26,134 {\an8}Mm. Tell me more about that. 116 00:06:26,135 --> 00:06:29,723 {\an8}I always let him call the shots. 117 00:06:30,516 --> 00:06:36,311 {\an8}Like... the time when he took me away for my birthday. 118 00:06:36,312 --> 00:06:39,856 {\an8}He picked this tiny little town upstate. 119 00:06:39,857 --> 00:06:42,984 {\an8}And then he refused to leave the hotel room all weekend. 120 00:06:42,985 --> 00:06:46,780 {\an8}And I just let him have his way, 121 00:06:46,781 --> 00:06:50,450 {\an8}even though it felt like he was embarrassed to be seen with me. 122 00:06:50,451 --> 00:06:54,162 {\an8}Oh. I didn't realize the two of you had traveled together. 123 00:06:54,163 --> 00:06:55,872 {\an8}Just the once. 124 00:06:55,873 --> 00:06:59,251 {\an8}You know, my mom was always the "go along to get along" type. 125 00:06:59,252 --> 00:07:01,378 {\an8}Maybe if she'd voiced a single opinion, 126 00:07:01,379 --> 00:07:03,380 {\an8}my dad wouldn't have cheated on her. 127 00:07:03,381 --> 00:07:05,757 {\an8}Well, I can see how you'd internalize silence 128 00:07:05,758 --> 00:07:07,845 {\an8}for weakness. 129 00:07:08,804 --> 00:07:11,513 {\an8}How do you think your family history influenced 130 00:07:11,514 --> 00:07:15,267 {\an8}your thoughts on dating a married man? 131 00:07:15,268 --> 00:07:17,477 {\an8}When did I say he was married? 132 00:07:17,478 --> 00:07:21,565 {\an8}Oh. I-I'm sorry. It... 133 00:07:21,566 --> 00:07:26,027 {\an8}The way you talk about him, I must have assumed. 134 00:07:26,028 --> 00:07:27,904 {\an8}Oh. 135 00:07:27,905 --> 00:07:29,866 {\an8}And that's our time. 136 00:07:32,536 --> 00:07:34,995 {\an8}Okay. Sounds good. I'll see you this weekend. 137 00:07:34,996 --> 00:07:37,372 {\an8}Okay. I love you, too. 138 00:07:37,373 --> 00:07:39,541 {\an8}- Ericka's gonna kill you. - What? 139 00:07:39,542 --> 00:07:41,418 {\an8}If you're trying to sneak her baby carrots, 140 00:07:41,419 --> 00:07:43,044 {\an8}she'll go straight for your carotid. 141 00:07:43,045 --> 00:07:45,797 {\an8}Copy that. 142 00:07:45,798 --> 00:07:47,841 {\an8}So, who were you talking to? 143 00:07:47,842 --> 00:07:49,467 {\an8}What? 144 00:07:49,468 --> 00:07:51,178 {\an8}Come on, man. On the phone. 145 00:07:51,179 --> 00:07:52,971 {\an8}Who are we going to see this weekend? 146 00:07:52,972 --> 00:07:54,389 {\an8}Uh, nobody. 147 00:07:54,390 --> 00:07:56,683 {\an8}Oh, okay. Okay. I get it. 148 00:07:56,684 --> 00:07:58,143 {\an8}You don't kiss and tell. 149 00:07:58,144 --> 00:08:00,020 {\an8}But first Wolf and now you, man. 150 00:08:00,021 --> 00:08:02,606 {\an8}I don't know where the love bug is, but it needs to come my way. 151 00:08:02,607 --> 00:08:05,860 {\an8}Van, send it this way. - All right. 152 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:12,782 {\an8}When did you first notice the chance in your vision? 153 00:08:12,783 --> 00:08:17,162 {\an8}About six months ago. I was in a car accident. 154 00:08:17,163 --> 00:08:19,873 {\an8}After that, it was like my whole world became 155 00:08:19,874 --> 00:08:21,458 {\an8}a black-and-white movie. 156 00:08:21,459 --> 00:08:24,127 {\an8}And to be clear, I don't like black-and -white movies. 157 00:08:24,128 --> 00:08:26,254 {\an8}- Now tell me about the accident. - It was nothing. 158 00:08:26,255 --> 00:08:28,173 {\an8}My car hit black ice, went into a ditch. 159 00:08:28,174 --> 00:08:30,133 {\an8}- Did you hit your head? - Nothing crazy. 160 00:08:30,134 --> 00:08:31,551 {\an8}Three stitches. 161 00:08:31,552 --> 00:08:36,099 {\an8}But... the next morning, everything was... 162 00:08:38,101 --> 00:08:40,101 {\an8}...different. 163 00:08:40,102 --> 00:08:41,519 {\an8}What is all this? 164 00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:43,438 {\an8}This is Holmgren's wool test. 165 00:08:43,439 --> 00:08:46,107 {\an8}This will help me understand the severity of your condition. 166 00:08:46,108 --> 00:08:48,151 {\an8}Um, choose the piece of yarn 167 00:08:48,152 --> 00:08:50,947 {\an8}that most closely matches this shade. 168 00:09:07,547 --> 00:09:10,882 {\an8}- I don't know. - It's okay. 169 00:09:10,883 --> 00:09:15,514 {\an8}Gabriel, when is the last time you left your studio? 170 00:09:17,391 --> 00:09:20,767 {\an8}I go outside in the world. It's-- It's ugly. Gray. 171 00:09:20,768 --> 00:09:23,144 {\an8}Food looks like it's been left to rot. 172 00:09:23,145 --> 00:09:25,146 {\an8}People don't even look like people anymore. 173 00:09:25,147 --> 00:09:26,398 {\an8}They're alien. 174 00:09:26,399 --> 00:09:28,149 {\an8}I used to love to paint the world, 175 00:09:28,150 --> 00:09:31,236 {\an8}and now I can barely stand to look at it. 176 00:09:31,237 --> 00:09:33,947 {\an8}It's just easier to stay inside. 177 00:09:33,948 --> 00:09:36,783 {\an8}I don't know. It... 178 00:09:36,784 --> 00:09:39,912 {\an8}Is a life like that even worth living? 179 00:09:43,834 --> 00:09:46,710 If you're willing, I think that it might be best 180 00:09:46,711 --> 00:09:49,672 for us to have this conversation at the hospital. 181 00:09:58,265 --> 00:09:59,889 I can't believe I'm looking at Gabriel Ferguson's brain. 182 00:09:59,890 --> 00:10:01,141 It's so cool. 183 00:10:01,142 --> 00:10:02,851 - You've heard of him? - Mm-hmm. 184 00:10:02,852 --> 00:10:06,187 I read a piece in The New Yorker about him a few years ago. 185 00:10:06,188 --> 00:10:07,939 Almost made me want to drop out of med school 186 00:10:07,940 --> 00:10:09,399 and pursue the arts. 187 00:10:09,400 --> 00:10:11,192 Almost. - I read that same piece. 188 00:10:11,193 --> 00:10:15,155 He talks about his expressive use of color to evoke emotion. 189 00:10:15,156 --> 00:10:17,742 This guy's work's incredible. 190 00:10:19,202 --> 00:10:21,369 Looks like an entirely unremarkable MRI to me. 191 00:10:21,370 --> 00:10:23,163 Which in itself is remarkable, 192 00:10:23,164 --> 00:10:25,165 considering he was in a car accident. 193 00:10:25,166 --> 00:10:26,541 Sorry. 194 00:10:26,542 --> 00:10:28,710 I'm being slammed with ED consults. 195 00:10:28,711 --> 00:10:31,713 I'm not trying to sound callous, but how urgent is this? 196 00:10:31,714 --> 00:10:34,049 The guy's color-blind-- not nothing-- 197 00:10:34,050 --> 00:10:38,219 but compared to Mr. Blanc's third ventricular tumor, 198 00:10:38,220 --> 00:10:39,721 this is kind of small potatoes, isn't it? 199 00:10:39,722 --> 00:10:41,973 Dr. Dang, this man has lost the one thing 200 00:10:41,974 --> 00:10:44,809 that helped him make sense of the world. 201 00:10:44,810 --> 00:10:47,395 Color is about more than pigment for this patient. 202 00:10:47,396 --> 00:10:49,397 And I'm afraid without it, 203 00:10:49,398 --> 00:10:51,816 he's losing a crucial part of himself. 204 00:10:51,817 --> 00:10:55,403 Okay. So, uh, what are we working with? 205 00:10:55,404 --> 00:10:57,238 Well, looks like his fundoscopic exam 206 00:10:57,239 --> 00:11:00,408 came back normal, so it's not a problem with the retina. 207 00:11:00,409 --> 00:11:02,577 So his eyes are mechanically fine. 208 00:11:02,578 --> 00:11:04,412 Which means there's a deficit at the level 209 00:11:04,413 --> 00:11:06,915 of the brain's ability to detect and process color. 210 00:11:06,916 --> 00:11:08,625 That's exactly right. 211 00:11:08,626 --> 00:11:10,627 Jacob and Van, I want you to look further into this accident. 212 00:11:10,628 --> 00:11:13,254 Ericka, get a full detailed medical history from Gabriel. 213 00:11:13,255 --> 00:11:14,839 And, Dana, finish with the ED 214 00:11:14,840 --> 00:11:16,674 and then I want you to start admin papers in HandP. 215 00:11:16,675 --> 00:11:19,637 I want to admit Gabriel. He shouldn't be alone now. 216 00:11:23,767 --> 00:11:27,727 Mm. Can we trade weekends at the end of the month? 217 00:11:27,728 --> 00:11:30,438 I scored Knicks tickets, and I'd love to bring Maya. 218 00:11:30,439 --> 00:11:32,025 Was it just sex with her? 219 00:11:33,110 --> 00:11:36,861 Was it just sex or... was there something more? 220 00:11:36,862 --> 00:11:39,864 Carol, we've been over this a million times. 221 00:11:39,865 --> 00:11:41,324 She meant nothing. 222 00:11:41,325 --> 00:11:43,034 What do I have to do for you to believe me, 223 00:11:43,035 --> 00:11:44,661 take a lie-detector test? 224 00:11:44,662 --> 00:11:47,372 You said you had that stem-cell conference in Philly 225 00:11:47,373 --> 00:11:49,040 over Presidents' Day weekend. 226 00:11:49,041 --> 00:11:51,543 Was that a lie? 227 00:11:51,544 --> 00:11:54,506 Morris, where you with her? - Where is this coming from? 228 00:11:58,051 --> 00:11:59,884 No. 229 00:11:59,885 --> 00:12:01,471 Of course not. 230 00:12:02,597 --> 00:12:04,097 I'm trying to be patient here. 231 00:12:04,098 --> 00:12:08,935 I want to give you all the time and space that you need. 232 00:12:08,936 --> 00:12:11,563 But how long are you gonna keep us all in limbo? 233 00:12:11,564 --> 00:12:13,648 You put us here, Morris, not me. 234 00:12:13,649 --> 00:12:16,151 And I regret it every single day. 235 00:12:16,152 --> 00:12:19,028 Maybe we should talk about counseling again. 236 00:12:19,029 --> 00:12:22,824 Don't let one night that meant nothing 237 00:12:22,825 --> 00:12:26,912 destroy 20 years that mean everything. 238 00:12:29,291 --> 00:12:30,833 I love you. 239 00:12:34,629 --> 00:12:36,798 At some point, we've got to move on. 240 00:12:39,843 --> 00:12:42,011 Easy for you to say. 241 00:12:43,638 --> 00:12:46,473 How long do I have to stay here? 242 00:12:46,474 --> 00:12:49,642 Uh, just until we can get a better sense 243 00:12:49,643 --> 00:12:51,979 of what's causing your condition. 244 00:12:54,107 --> 00:12:56,191 Doctors and politicians. 245 00:12:56,192 --> 00:12:58,862 Can't get a straight answer out of either of them. 246 00:13:01,448 --> 00:13:03,907 I know what it's like to live without a sense 247 00:13:03,908 --> 00:13:08,121 and to feel disconnected from everyone as a result. 248 00:13:09,080 --> 00:13:11,625 I have prosopagnosia. 249 00:13:12,334 --> 00:13:13,875 Everyone looks the same. 250 00:13:13,876 --> 00:13:17,754 I can recognize individual features and expressions, 251 00:13:17,755 --> 00:13:19,756 but I cannot distinguish faces. 252 00:13:19,757 --> 00:13:21,758 And some days, if I'm caught off guard, 253 00:13:21,759 --> 00:13:23,845 I can't even recognize my own reflection. 254 00:13:25,138 --> 00:13:27,222 So I'm a stranger to myself. 255 00:13:27,223 --> 00:13:31,061 I'm constantly startled by who I see or don't see. 256 00:13:31,895 --> 00:13:36,231 So I understand what you're going through, Gabriel. 257 00:13:36,232 --> 00:13:38,234 You done? 258 00:13:40,612 --> 00:13:42,487 - Yes. - Good. Look. 259 00:13:42,488 --> 00:13:44,197 I don't know who you couldn't help in the past 260 00:13:44,198 --> 00:13:46,282 that makes you feel like you need to save everyone 261 00:13:46,283 --> 00:13:48,076 in front of you, but I'm not your guy. 262 00:13:48,077 --> 00:13:51,122 Either fix this or send me home. 263 00:13:52,249 --> 00:13:53,748 Man, where'd you disappear to? 264 00:13:53,749 --> 00:13:55,750 Afternoon delight with the mystery girl? 265 00:13:55,751 --> 00:13:58,586 - Don't start. - Aw, come on, Markus. 266 00:13:58,587 --> 00:14:00,757 Who is she, man? Stop holding out on me. 267 00:14:01,925 --> 00:14:04,926 Wait. It's not someone at the hospital, is it? 268 00:14:04,927 --> 00:14:07,220 Don't you have that, uh, delirium consult 269 00:14:07,221 --> 00:14:08,680 at the ortho service? 270 00:14:08,681 --> 00:14:11,558 Already handled. Don't worry about my business. 271 00:14:11,559 --> 00:14:13,560 You just keep handling yours, playboy. 272 00:14:13,561 --> 00:14:15,228 Hey. What did you guys get? 273 00:14:15,229 --> 00:14:16,938 Hospital records. 274 00:14:16,939 --> 00:14:20,108 Post car accident, strangely, doesn't look his head trauma 275 00:14:20,109 --> 00:14:22,026 was severe enough to even cause color blindness. 276 00:14:22,027 --> 00:14:24,529 I mean, his previous doctors didn't even order a CT scan. 277 00:14:24,530 --> 00:14:26,781 I'm not sure head trauma would even be the cause. 278 00:14:26,782 --> 00:14:29,075 He said it started the morning after the accident. 279 00:14:29,076 --> 00:14:31,619 - Hence the mystery. - Check this out. 280 00:14:31,620 --> 00:14:33,997 Police report from Gabriel's accident. 281 00:14:33,998 --> 00:14:36,833 He was trapped in the car for hours before someone found him. 282 00:14:36,834 --> 00:14:39,627 And he wasn't alone. - A fatality. 283 00:14:39,628 --> 00:14:42,255 His ability to see color isn't the only thing 284 00:14:42,256 --> 00:14:45,300 Gabriel lost that night. 285 00:14:45,301 --> 00:14:48,345 He lost his wife. 286 00:14:59,316 --> 00:15:00,398 We have reviewed all of your test results, 287 00:15:00,399 --> 00:15:01,983 considering the car accident, 288 00:15:01,984 --> 00:15:06,654 what you have is called acquired cerebral achromatopsia. 289 00:15:06,655 --> 00:15:08,323 Total color-blindness. 290 00:15:08,324 --> 00:15:10,283 It wasn't caused by the impact of the crash, 291 00:15:10,284 --> 00:15:12,410 but during the time you were trapped in the car 292 00:15:12,411 --> 00:15:15,163 you were exposed to a toxic level of carbon monoxide, 293 00:15:15,164 --> 00:15:18,708 which led to damage to the part of the brain 294 00:15:18,709 --> 00:15:20,918 responsible for processing color. 295 00:15:20,919 --> 00:15:23,379 It's an odorless gas. You wouldn't even have known. 296 00:15:23,380 --> 00:15:27,967 But a few minutes longer in that car, and you could have died. 297 00:15:27,968 --> 00:15:30,219 This is permanent. That's what you're telling me? 298 00:15:30,220 --> 00:15:32,847 This is... this is it. 299 00:15:32,848 --> 00:15:35,267 That's what I'm telling you. 300 00:15:38,647 --> 00:15:43,943 Gabriel, is there anything else you'd like to... share... 301 00:15:45,153 --> 00:15:46,320 ...about the accident? 302 00:15:48,448 --> 00:15:49,824 Nope. 303 00:15:52,077 --> 00:15:56,206 I know it doesn't feel like it, but a diagnosis is progress. 304 00:15:57,290 --> 00:15:59,209 We have a place to start now. 305 00:15:59,959 --> 00:16:05,338 You know, the last thing I do is give a painting a name... 306 00:16:05,339 --> 00:16:07,967 because then it's finished. 307 00:16:12,555 --> 00:16:15,308 You've put a name to my problem. 308 00:16:16,559 --> 00:16:19,103 It feels like I'm finished now. 309 00:16:21,856 --> 00:16:23,981 I need to see Dr. Pierce. Page her if you need to. 310 00:16:23,982 --> 00:16:25,441 Dr. Pierce has a full schedule, 311 00:16:25,442 --> 00:16:26,776 and you don't have an appointment. 312 00:16:26,777 --> 00:16:28,403 No. Please. You don't understand. 313 00:16:28,404 --> 00:16:30,071 This is a medical emergency. 314 00:16:30,072 --> 00:16:31,906 The pills she prescribed me are messing with my head. 315 00:16:31,907 --> 00:16:34,283 Look, ma'am. Like I said, I can set you up with a-- 316 00:16:34,284 --> 00:16:35,743 Am I in the Twilight Zone? 317 00:16:35,744 --> 00:16:37,829 I don't want to talk to anybody else. 318 00:16:37,830 --> 00:16:40,248 I want to talk to Dr. Pierce! 319 00:16:40,249 --> 00:16:41,666 So just go to her office 320 00:16:41,667 --> 00:16:43,918 and tell her that Alison Whittaker needs her. 321 00:16:43,919 --> 00:16:47,046 Ms. Whittaker, uh, I'm Dr. Dang. 322 00:16:47,047 --> 00:16:48,965 And I-I'm not a psychiatrist, 323 00:16:48,966 --> 00:16:50,925 but I did lose it on my therapist once 324 00:16:50,926 --> 00:16:52,927 when she couldn't squeeze me in on a Saturday. 325 00:16:52,928 --> 00:16:54,971 I actually hung up on her. 326 00:16:54,972 --> 00:16:56,973 True story. I watched it all go down. 327 00:16:56,974 --> 00:16:58,727 Yeah. 328 00:16:59,561 --> 00:17:01,018 I'm sorry for yelling. 329 00:17:01,019 --> 00:17:04,147 I feel like my emotions are running amok. 330 00:17:04,148 --> 00:17:06,357 Um, well, here. Come-- Come sit. 331 00:17:06,358 --> 00:17:07,525 Come sit. 332 00:17:07,526 --> 00:17:09,861 I have something that might help. 333 00:17:09,862 --> 00:17:13,865 I have a hookup in OB/GYN. and they use aromatherapy 334 00:17:13,866 --> 00:17:16,451 to help soothe expecting moms during labor. 335 00:17:16,452 --> 00:17:20,997 So, the olfactory senses can help ease the nervous system. 336 00:17:20,998 --> 00:17:22,249 May I? 337 00:17:25,128 --> 00:17:29,130 Therapy is so weird. 338 00:17:29,131 --> 00:17:31,090 You pour your soul out for someone, 339 00:17:31,091 --> 00:17:33,426 and it feels like they're totally invested in you. 340 00:17:33,427 --> 00:17:36,804 And then you hear those three dreaded words-- 341 00:17:36,805 --> 00:17:38,933 "That's our time." 342 00:17:39,726 --> 00:17:40,975 And then it's like they can't get you 343 00:17:40,976 --> 00:17:42,894 out of their office fast enough. 344 00:17:42,895 --> 00:17:45,480 Sometimes I wonder if Dr. Pierce cares about me at all. 345 00:17:45,481 --> 00:17:47,106 She does care. 346 00:17:47,107 --> 00:17:49,817 She's completely invested in her patients. 347 00:17:49,818 --> 00:17:51,861 - When they have an appointment. - That's not true. 348 00:17:51,862 --> 00:17:53,821 Dr. Pierce actually came to me recently 349 00:17:53,822 --> 00:17:56,115 because she was really worried about you. 350 00:17:56,116 --> 00:17:57,950 She hadn't heard from you in a few days, 351 00:17:57,951 --> 00:18:00,328 and she wanted help tracking you down. 352 00:18:00,329 --> 00:18:03,539 If that's not a psychiatrist who cares, 353 00:18:03,540 --> 00:18:05,960 I don't know what is. 354 00:18:06,836 --> 00:18:08,419 Thank you. 355 00:18:08,420 --> 00:18:10,130 I needed to hear that. 356 00:18:13,259 --> 00:18:15,760 It's not just the loss of colors for Gabriel. 357 00:18:15,761 --> 00:18:18,346 It's the... the loss of the feelings 358 00:18:18,347 --> 00:18:20,306 he associates with them-- 359 00:18:20,307 --> 00:18:24,310 the people, the places, even the sounds. 360 00:18:24,311 --> 00:18:27,814 Gabriel lost the foundation of his art, his livelihood. 361 00:18:27,815 --> 00:18:29,524 - His self. - Yes. 362 00:18:29,525 --> 00:18:32,693 And the loss of feeling is as much an obstacle to his healing 363 00:18:32,694 --> 00:18:34,862 as the loss of color itself. 364 00:18:34,863 --> 00:18:37,031 Gabriel lost his person, 365 00:18:37,032 --> 00:18:39,367 and that is not an easy thing to accept. 366 00:18:39,368 --> 00:18:41,327 Are we still talking about my patient, 367 00:18:41,328 --> 00:18:44,163 or are we talking about you? - This is not about me, sir. 368 00:18:44,164 --> 00:18:46,583 Out of curiosity, how are things with Morris? 369 00:18:48,002 --> 00:18:50,211 Let me steal a page out of your book. 370 00:18:50,212 --> 00:18:52,090 How are you feeling? 371 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:57,009 Stupid... for still loving him. 372 00:18:57,010 --> 00:18:59,347 - Well, you're not. - Mm. 373 00:19:00,807 --> 00:19:02,765 I chose him. 374 00:19:02,766 --> 00:19:09,939 I chose to love him, to spend the rest of my life with him, 375 00:19:09,940 --> 00:19:12,692 to start a family with him. 376 00:19:12,693 --> 00:19:15,027 And Morris is an incredible father. 377 00:19:15,028 --> 00:19:17,154 I have to think about what's best here for Maya, too. 378 00:19:17,155 --> 00:19:20,700 I...I can't just tear our family apart. 379 00:19:20,701 --> 00:19:23,077 Hey, you didn't do this. Morris did. 380 00:19:23,078 --> 00:19:25,621 And I want to forgive him. 381 00:19:25,622 --> 00:19:28,124 I do. 382 00:19:28,125 --> 00:19:29,750 I... 383 00:19:29,751 --> 00:19:34,089 I don't know what my life looks like without him in it. 384 00:19:36,885 --> 00:19:39,051 {\an8}♪ I'll stare into the darkness ♪ 385 00:19:39,052 --> 00:19:41,804 ♪ Come the ride or die ♪ 386 00:19:41,805 --> 00:19:43,890 ♪ I'll shed my skin with you ♪ 387 00:19:43,891 --> 00:19:46,475 ♪ Come the ride or die ♪ 388 00:19:46,476 --> 00:19:48,937 ♪ One, two, ready or not and three... ♪ 389 00:19:58,489 --> 00:20:01,115 Looking big, my guy. 390 00:20:01,116 --> 00:20:03,451 What kind of split are you on? - Can we just do this? 391 00:20:03,452 --> 00:20:05,244 My mom could be back any second. 392 00:20:05,245 --> 00:20:08,956 Same stuff as last time. Remember, don't overdo it. 393 00:20:08,957 --> 00:20:12,168 This stuff can be kind of intense. 394 00:20:12,169 --> 00:20:14,170 Side effects may include-- - Carpal tunnel, 395 00:20:14,171 --> 00:20:16,839 insulin resistance, hormonal imbalance, acromegaly. 396 00:20:16,840 --> 00:20:18,507 I got it. 397 00:20:18,508 --> 00:20:20,469 Here's the cash. 398 00:20:23,097 --> 00:20:24,891 You ever try magic mushrooms? 399 00:20:25,975 --> 00:20:29,852 Craziest feeling in the world. Your dreams will come to life. 400 00:20:29,853 --> 00:20:32,189 See colors you've never experienced. 401 00:20:35,526 --> 00:20:36,984 Psychedelics. 402 00:20:36,985 --> 00:20:38,653 This is how Gabriel will see color again 403 00:20:38,654 --> 00:20:41,113 and come to terms with his reality-- psilocybin. 404 00:20:41,114 --> 00:20:43,699 I get that he might see the illusion of colors 405 00:20:43,700 --> 00:20:45,284 when he's high, but that'll fade. 406 00:20:45,285 --> 00:20:47,119 Unless you plan to give him psychedelics constantly, 407 00:20:47,120 --> 00:20:49,205 which sounds... problematic. 408 00:20:49,206 --> 00:20:51,207 Since the car accident, Gabriel has been locked 409 00:20:51,208 --> 00:20:52,833 in a state of grief, unable to move forward. 410 00:20:52,834 --> 00:20:55,044 But psychedelics can open the brain. 411 00:20:55,045 --> 00:20:56,587 He didn't damage the actual color centers, 412 00:20:56,588 --> 00:20:58,881 just the pathways, but we can create new ones. 413 00:20:58,882 --> 00:21:02,343 He can confront the traumatic event, find peace, move on. 414 00:21:02,344 --> 00:21:03,469 Yes. Exactly. 415 00:21:03,470 --> 00:21:05,054 Gabriel still has color in his mind, 416 00:21:05,055 --> 00:21:06,514 even if his brain can't recognize it. 417 00:21:06,515 --> 00:21:08,516 I've read about psychedelics and depression. 418 00:21:08,517 --> 00:21:10,893 The results are mixed, but there has been improvement, 419 00:21:10,894 --> 00:21:12,228 even after just a few rounds of therapy. 420 00:21:12,229 --> 00:21:14,105 But what's the mechanism? 421 00:21:14,106 --> 00:21:15,856 Neuroplasticity-- the brain's ability to change itself. 422 00:21:15,857 --> 00:21:18,859 Psilocybin encourages neurons to work through connections 423 00:21:18,860 --> 00:21:21,946 they wouldn't generally use and to create new synapses. 424 00:21:21,947 --> 00:21:23,572 And break Gabriel's traumatic cycle. 425 00:21:23,573 --> 00:21:25,783 We could temporarily reawaken the color in his mind. 426 00:21:25,784 --> 00:21:28,035 Not to be a stick in the mud, but psychedelic therapy 427 00:21:28,036 --> 00:21:30,538 isn't exactly legal in the state of New York. 428 00:21:30,539 --> 00:21:32,039 - Narc. - Ericka's right. 429 00:21:32,040 --> 00:21:34,000 To do this aboveboard with a clinical trial 430 00:21:34,001 --> 00:21:35,584 would take time-- months, maybe. 431 00:21:35,585 --> 00:21:37,878 Then let's just say our patient is the newest subject 432 00:21:37,879 --> 00:21:39,088 of the clinical trial. 433 00:21:39,089 --> 00:21:41,466 - Okay. Whose trial? - Mine. 434 00:21:57,650 --> 00:22:00,569 Any chance there's some Dolly Parton in the rotation? 435 00:22:01,904 --> 00:22:04,113 Uh, I'm afraid not, no. 436 00:22:04,114 --> 00:22:06,240 Uh, it's been about 30 minutes. 437 00:22:06,241 --> 00:22:09,035 How are you feeling? - My toes tingle. 438 00:22:09,036 --> 00:22:12,246 I'll say this is a treatment I could get behind. 439 00:22:12,247 --> 00:22:15,166 Well, that's a good sign. 440 00:22:15,167 --> 00:22:18,669 Just try and relax, Gabriel. This is your journey. 441 00:22:18,670 --> 00:22:21,882 Your mind will take you wherever you need to go. 442 00:22:40,735 --> 00:22:41,943 What are you seeing? 443 00:22:44,322 --> 00:22:45,946 Her. 444 00:22:45,947 --> 00:22:48,617 I see her. 445 00:23:03,299 --> 00:23:04,758 Please. 446 00:23:07,011 --> 00:23:08,553 Bring her back. 447 00:23:26,239 --> 00:23:27,781 Did you enjoy your rest? 448 00:23:31,869 --> 00:23:33,202 Dad? 449 00:23:33,203 --> 00:23:36,749 Psilocybin. That's a development. 450 00:23:37,542 --> 00:23:41,085 You know, I really like what your mom's done with the house. 451 00:23:41,086 --> 00:23:43,212 I never wanted to reupholster that chair, 452 00:23:43,213 --> 00:23:45,882 but the blue really works. 453 00:23:49,345 --> 00:23:54,682 The last time I saw you... in the woods, where'd you go? 454 00:23:54,683 --> 00:23:57,351 That wasn't my best day. 455 00:23:57,352 --> 00:23:59,313 I'm sorry I left you alone. 456 00:24:00,022 --> 00:24:03,190 But I wasn't as far away as you think. 457 00:24:03,191 --> 00:24:06,487 I've been with you, just right here. 458 00:24:07,405 --> 00:24:10,699 I meant that I said-- I'll never leave you. 459 00:24:13,119 --> 00:24:15,744 So, how's school going? 460 00:24:15,745 --> 00:24:18,124 What are you doing for fun? 461 00:24:18,791 --> 00:24:20,293 Any girls in your life? 462 00:24:20,960 --> 00:24:23,212 Uh... 463 00:24:24,255 --> 00:24:29,009 ...actually, Dad, I-I... I like guys. 464 00:24:35,183 --> 00:24:37,768 Any guy in particular? 465 00:24:39,353 --> 00:24:41,061 Yeah. There, uh... 466 00:24:41,062 --> 00:24:44,523 there was one, a while ago. 467 00:24:44,524 --> 00:24:47,860 But, uh, Mom put an end to it. 468 00:24:47,861 --> 00:24:50,905 She drove him away, just like she did with you. 469 00:24:50,906 --> 00:24:52,781 You're too hard on your mom. 470 00:24:52,782 --> 00:24:54,742 And you want to know a secret? 471 00:24:54,743 --> 00:24:56,411 She's usually right. 472 00:24:58,247 --> 00:25:01,292 I want to know more about you. Tell me everything. 473 00:25:02,293 --> 00:25:04,503 What'd I miss? 474 00:25:05,338 --> 00:25:08,172 I haven't talked about her since the funeral. 475 00:25:08,173 --> 00:25:09,590 It was too hard. 476 00:25:09,591 --> 00:25:11,759 Why did I deserve life and not her? 477 00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:15,640 Ah. That's an impossible question. 478 00:25:17,016 --> 00:25:19,769 What was her name? - Amber. 479 00:25:20,478 --> 00:25:24,021 I never thought I'd see her like that again, and in color. 480 00:25:24,022 --> 00:25:28,236 And-- And when I did, in that-- that brief moment... 481 00:25:30,947 --> 00:25:33,699 ...she made my world beautiful. 482 00:25:34,825 --> 00:25:36,784 She gave it color. 483 00:25:36,785 --> 00:25:39,620 The but the accident didn't take away your memory of her. 484 00:25:39,621 --> 00:25:41,956 But she's fading more every day. 485 00:25:41,957 --> 00:25:46,127 I'm-- I'm forgetting how the world used to look... 486 00:25:48,881 --> 00:25:50,799 ...how she looked. 487 00:26:04,480 --> 00:26:09,985 Then paint her-- the way you used to see her. 488 00:26:15,157 --> 00:26:17,825 - Dr. Pierce, you got a minute? - I'm running late for a meeting. 489 00:26:17,826 --> 00:26:19,576 It's about Alison Whittaker. 490 00:26:19,577 --> 00:26:21,495 She was in earlier and seemed on the verge of a breakdown. 491 00:26:21,496 --> 00:26:23,539 We talked her off the ledge, but you might want to follow up. 492 00:26:23,540 --> 00:26:25,249 Noted. I will reach out. Thank you. 493 00:26:25,250 --> 00:26:26,750 Most of her distress stemmed from feelings 494 00:26:26,751 --> 00:26:28,627 that you weren't invested in her recovery. 495 00:26:28,628 --> 00:26:30,504 Well, I will let her know that is not the case. 496 00:26:30,505 --> 00:26:32,339 She seemed pretty reassured when I told her 497 00:26:32,340 --> 00:26:33,716 you'd been worried about her 498 00:26:33,717 --> 00:26:35,342 and wanted our help tracking her down. 499 00:26:35,343 --> 00:26:37,511 You told her what? 500 00:26:37,512 --> 00:26:40,764 Well, she was in a state, and you were unavailable. 501 00:26:40,765 --> 00:26:42,224 We were de-escalating 502 00:26:42,225 --> 00:26:43,642 what could've been a mental-health crisis. 503 00:26:43,643 --> 00:26:46,270 - You're welcome. - Excuse me? 504 00:26:46,271 --> 00:26:48,063 You are interns. 505 00:26:48,064 --> 00:26:50,357 Neurology interns. 506 00:26:50,358 --> 00:26:53,152 When I need your help, I'll ask for it. 507 00:26:53,153 --> 00:26:55,279 Remember that the next time 508 00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,991 you want to interfere with my patients. 509 00:27:04,290 --> 00:27:06,540 So just initial here, 510 00:27:06,541 --> 00:27:09,126 and you should be all set to go home. 511 00:27:09,127 --> 00:27:15,759 You ought to take that down... before it kills somebody. 512 00:27:17,303 --> 00:27:19,013 Poor guy. 513 00:27:19,930 --> 00:27:23,640 Losing the woman he loves. Can you imagine? 514 00:27:23,641 --> 00:27:26,393 All right, man. For real, cut it out. 515 00:27:26,394 --> 00:27:28,437 All the jokes, the guessing-- just stop. 516 00:27:28,438 --> 00:27:30,022 I'm not hooking up with anybody, 517 00:27:30,023 --> 00:27:31,732 especially not anyone who works at the hospital. 518 00:27:31,733 --> 00:27:34,610 Van, relax, man. I didn't even mean it like that. 519 00:27:34,611 --> 00:27:37,905 I'm just saying... it sucks about our patient. 520 00:27:37,906 --> 00:27:40,075 That's all. 521 00:27:43,162 --> 00:27:46,580 Dr. Nichols, uh, it's Dr. Wolf. 522 00:27:46,581 --> 00:27:51,877 I hope that this neurosurgical conference is enlightening. 523 00:27:51,878 --> 00:27:56,423 Your absence is felt at Bronx... so I've heard. 524 00:27:56,424 --> 00:28:00,594 Uh-- Um, I heard that... today. 525 00:28:00,595 --> 00:28:02,888 I have a patient who hates me. 526 00:28:02,889 --> 00:28:04,598 So you'll love him. 527 00:28:04,599 --> 00:28:06,975 A painter with cerebral achromatopsia. 528 00:28:06,976 --> 00:28:08,519 That's ironic, isn't it? 529 00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:10,646 And, uh-- 530 00:28:10,647 --> 00:28:13,565 If you would like to listen to your message, press 1. 531 00:28:13,566 --> 00:28:15,860 To delete, press 2. 532 00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:25,369 Josh? 533 00:28:25,370 --> 00:28:28,622 Oh. No. I'm sorry. I thought you were someone else. 534 00:28:28,623 --> 00:28:32,252 Oh, just slow-- slow down. Slow down. What's going on? 535 00:28:33,796 --> 00:28:35,963 Okay. No. Don't do anything until I get there. 536 00:28:35,964 --> 00:28:36,965 I'm on my way. 537 00:28:41,554 --> 00:28:43,178 You're out of your mind! 538 00:28:43,179 --> 00:28:45,557 Gabe, stop this. Stop! 539 00:28:47,101 --> 00:28:49,268 I can't look at it anymore! 540 00:28:49,269 --> 00:28:51,854 Please help him. I don't know what to do. 541 00:28:51,855 --> 00:28:54,733 - Gabriel. - You've got to help him. 542 00:28:55,526 --> 00:28:57,151 I tried, Dr. Wolf. 543 00:28:57,152 --> 00:29:00,279 I tried to paint, to remember her, like you said. 544 00:29:00,280 --> 00:29:01,738 But you were wrong! 545 00:29:01,739 --> 00:29:03,991 I'm never gonna see normally again! 546 00:29:03,992 --> 00:29:05,325 I don't want to live like this! 547 00:29:05,326 --> 00:29:08,287 I...I can't live without her. 548 00:29:08,288 --> 00:29:11,290 Yes, you can. 549 00:29:11,291 --> 00:29:14,251 Gabriel... I know what you're doing, 550 00:29:14,252 --> 00:29:16,545 because I've done it myself-- shutting everyone out, 551 00:29:16,546 --> 00:29:18,589 angry at yourself, angry at the world. 552 00:29:18,590 --> 00:29:21,842 But all of this is only gonna hurt you, 553 00:29:21,843 --> 00:29:24,846 and none of it is gonna bring her back. 554 00:29:26,223 --> 00:29:28,601 Think of Amber. 555 00:29:30,186 --> 00:29:32,228 What would she want you to do right now? 556 00:29:54,627 --> 00:29:56,752 How are you feeling? 557 00:29:56,753 --> 00:29:58,837 Pedialyte and aspirin. - Super. 558 00:29:58,838 --> 00:30:00,589 I've got a doctor who prescribes groceries. 559 00:30:00,590 --> 00:30:02,341 What are you doing? 560 00:30:02,342 --> 00:30:05,511 Uh, I think I left my wallet at the bodega across the street. 561 00:30:05,512 --> 00:30:07,389 Hold on. 562 00:30:09,808 --> 00:30:12,937 Your wallet's on the counter by the cash register. 563 00:30:15,105 --> 00:30:17,024 What... 564 00:30:20,152 --> 00:30:22,903 You can see that in the dark? 565 00:30:22,904 --> 00:30:23,947 Yep. 566 00:30:27,326 --> 00:30:28,910 Uh... 567 00:30:36,710 --> 00:30:39,086 Are you able to read what I just wrote? 568 00:30:39,087 --> 00:30:40,462 You don't have to do this. 569 00:30:40,463 --> 00:30:42,047 My commissions are due in two weeks. 570 00:30:42,048 --> 00:30:43,465 I have nothing to show, 571 00:30:43,466 --> 00:30:45,926 so I'm officially relieving you of your duty 572 00:30:45,927 --> 00:30:48,387 to uphold the Hippocratic oath or whatever. 573 00:30:48,388 --> 00:30:50,931 Please. Just indulge me. 574 00:30:50,932 --> 00:30:53,935 I can't read that in this light. Can you? 575 00:30:57,648 --> 00:30:59,565 You wrote my dead wife's name. 576 00:30:59,566 --> 00:31:01,775 Okay. So what does that mean? 577 00:31:01,776 --> 00:31:04,236 That you can see what others can't. 578 00:31:04,237 --> 00:31:05,612 It's incredible. 579 00:31:05,613 --> 00:31:07,197 Without color, 580 00:31:07,198 --> 00:31:08,907 your brain must be sensitive to wavelengths of light 581 00:31:08,908 --> 00:31:10,784 undetectable by the typical eye. 582 00:31:10,785 --> 00:31:14,162 What's too dark for most people, your eyes are able to see. 583 00:31:14,163 --> 00:31:16,415 And how do you explain the rest of the time, 584 00:31:16,416 --> 00:31:18,125 when I can't even make out objects at all? 585 00:31:18,126 --> 00:31:20,377 Cars are just floating headlights. 586 00:31:20,378 --> 00:31:22,963 Right, because the color of the car is likely too similar 587 00:31:22,964 --> 00:31:24,798 a wavelength of light to its background, 588 00:31:24,799 --> 00:31:27,092 so they disappear, they blur together into one form. 589 00:31:27,093 --> 00:31:31,013 Dr. Wolf, I tried to paint using my memory of color. 590 00:31:31,014 --> 00:31:32,806 I did what you said, and it didn't work. 591 00:31:32,807 --> 00:31:37,269 I think what we need to do is narrow your focus, 592 00:31:37,270 --> 00:31:39,938 filter the light you see. 593 00:31:39,939 --> 00:31:44,444 In essence... we can give you an entirely new way of seeing. 594 00:31:49,908 --> 00:31:51,533 How's he doing? 595 00:31:51,534 --> 00:31:53,493 Well, now that he has answers, 596 00:31:53,494 --> 00:31:55,954 he's processing his reality a little better. 597 00:31:55,955 --> 00:31:58,332 But we can't reverse the damage. 598 00:31:58,333 --> 00:32:03,170 What else can we do for him? - Well, for Gabriel... 599 00:32:03,171 --> 00:32:06,423 the obstacle to moving forward isn't just about color. 600 00:32:06,424 --> 00:32:08,008 It's about feeling. 601 00:32:08,009 --> 00:32:09,885 And right now all that he feels is his wife missing, 602 00:32:09,886 --> 00:32:12,512 like all of the color in his world. 603 00:32:12,513 --> 00:32:15,223 He needs a little help seeing beauty right now. 604 00:32:15,224 --> 00:32:18,185 So... I had these made. 605 00:32:18,186 --> 00:32:20,188 What do those do? 606 00:32:24,360 --> 00:32:25,692 Wait. What was that? 607 00:32:25,693 --> 00:32:27,402 Why did you just hide from Dr. Pierce? 608 00:32:27,403 --> 00:32:28,820 Hmm? 609 00:32:28,821 --> 00:32:31,116 Don't know what you're talking about. 610 00:32:32,534 --> 00:32:34,242 Why did you yell at my interns? 611 00:32:34,243 --> 00:32:36,662 I did not yell. 612 00:32:36,663 --> 00:32:38,955 What is going on? 613 00:32:38,956 --> 00:32:41,543 Is this Morris? 614 00:32:42,711 --> 00:32:46,090 - It's Alison. - Alison your patient? 615 00:32:47,174 --> 00:32:50,550 Do you feel guilty for not seeing her anymore? 616 00:32:50,551 --> 00:32:53,345 I'm still seeing her. I never stopped. 617 00:32:53,346 --> 00:32:56,765 But only because she asked me to and because I want to help. 618 00:32:56,766 --> 00:32:59,184 Carol, this is textbook conflict of interest. 619 00:32:59,185 --> 00:33:01,603 Yes. That is the one thing I know for certain. 620 00:33:01,604 --> 00:33:04,815 Everything else, me and Morris... 621 00:33:04,816 --> 00:33:07,025 I... 622 00:33:07,026 --> 00:33:09,613 I don't even know how we got here. 623 00:33:10,239 --> 00:33:11,530 Was it me? 624 00:33:11,531 --> 00:33:13,031 Look, I'm not gonna sit up here 625 00:33:13,032 --> 00:33:14,574 and pretend like I've been the perfect wife, 626 00:33:14,575 --> 00:33:17,911 but I have fought for this marriage. 627 00:33:17,912 --> 00:33:20,372 And now I-I'm sacrificing my career. 628 00:33:20,373 --> 00:33:21,915 And for what? 629 00:33:21,916 --> 00:33:24,169 For the truth that I may never get? 630 00:33:25,754 --> 00:33:28,966 Carol, this has gone too far. 631 00:33:29,717 --> 00:33:31,384 You know what you need to do. 632 00:33:37,975 --> 00:33:41,226 Hey. I didn't tell Jacob anything about us, okay? 633 00:33:41,227 --> 00:33:43,145 He overheard something totally unrelated 634 00:33:43,146 --> 00:33:45,272 and he made an assumption, but he doesn't know. 635 00:33:45,273 --> 00:33:47,941 I swear I didn't say a word. - What if he finds out? 636 00:33:47,942 --> 00:33:49,818 I don't want to be known as the girl 637 00:33:49,819 --> 00:33:51,486 who sleeps around with her co-workers. 638 00:33:51,487 --> 00:33:52,821 Who else are you sleeping with? 639 00:33:52,822 --> 00:33:55,532 What? Nobody. 640 00:33:55,533 --> 00:33:57,617 That is not the point. 641 00:33:57,618 --> 00:34:00,328 I don't want anyone talking about me. 642 00:34:00,329 --> 00:34:03,832 You know, for the first time in my life, I thought, "Screw it. 643 00:34:03,833 --> 00:34:06,128 Have some fun, Ericka." 644 00:34:06,962 --> 00:34:09,129 This is starting to feel so messy, Van, 645 00:34:09,130 --> 00:34:12,091 and that is not what either of us signed up for. 646 00:34:14,511 --> 00:34:16,053 Maybe this was a mistake. 647 00:34:23,312 --> 00:34:25,230 Comfortable? 648 00:34:26,231 --> 00:34:28,356 And unattractive. 649 00:34:28,357 --> 00:34:30,484 Is every medical device required to be so ugly? 650 00:34:30,485 --> 00:34:32,528 I happen to think they're incredibly stylish. 651 00:34:35,073 --> 00:34:38,533 The filter in the lenses should help distinguish objects 652 00:34:38,534 --> 00:34:39,951 that are too similar in wavelength 653 00:34:39,952 --> 00:34:41,828 so things stop blurring together. 654 00:34:41,829 --> 00:34:45,207 The glasses should help you work with your vision 655 00:34:45,208 --> 00:34:46,541 instead of against it. 656 00:34:46,542 --> 00:34:48,126 Losing an aspect of your vision 657 00:34:48,127 --> 00:34:50,631 is different from losing a point of view. 658 00:34:51,548 --> 00:34:53,882 Gabriel, you don't just see in black and white. 659 00:34:53,883 --> 00:34:58,263 You see shades of gray that so many people never will. 660 00:34:59,097 --> 00:35:00,722 How about a pair of glasses 661 00:35:00,723 --> 00:35:02,516 that can make me see normally again? 662 00:35:02,517 --> 00:35:04,770 Someday, maybe. 663 00:35:06,271 --> 00:35:10,943 There's a story by HG Wells-- "Country of the Blind"? 664 00:35:11,610 --> 00:35:13,318 It's about a lost traveler 665 00:35:13,319 --> 00:35:16,279 who stumbles across a community of people 666 00:35:16,280 --> 00:35:18,031 who have been blind for centuries, 667 00:35:18,032 --> 00:35:21,076 who have lost the very concept of sight. 668 00:35:21,077 --> 00:35:23,537 Now, they regard the traveler as the peculiar one, 669 00:35:23,538 --> 00:35:26,915 challenging our ideas of what we perceive as normal. 670 00:35:26,916 --> 00:35:30,377 This... is your new normal. 671 00:35:30,378 --> 00:35:32,420 But adaptation doesn't mean moving backward. 672 00:35:32,421 --> 00:35:35,590 It doesn't mean... fitting into the world. 673 00:35:35,591 --> 00:35:41,514 It means letting people into your world how you see it now. 674 00:35:43,267 --> 00:35:46,309 I like to wake up early to watch the sun rise. 675 00:35:46,310 --> 00:35:48,188 Always have. 676 00:35:49,439 --> 00:35:55,236 Every day since the accident... it's been gray. 677 00:35:57,072 --> 00:35:59,992 The sun. Can you imagine? 678 00:36:00,826 --> 00:36:02,367 I've been holding out hope 679 00:36:02,368 --> 00:36:08,375 that one morning it'll be glorious again, beautiful. 680 00:36:09,710 --> 00:36:12,919 Well, Gabriel, the way that you feel, 681 00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:14,671 it affects how you see the world. 682 00:36:14,672 --> 00:36:19,845 So... maybe tomorrow the sunrise can be beautiful again. 683 00:36:21,889 --> 00:36:23,598 Maybe. 684 00:36:30,772 --> 00:36:34,775 Take the paint away-- all of it. 685 00:36:36,528 --> 00:36:39,239 Except the black and white. 686 00:36:40,032 --> 00:36:41,490 I'm gonna need those. 687 00:36:49,124 --> 00:36:50,916 Before you say anything, 688 00:36:50,917 --> 00:36:54,252 I'm sorry for making such a scene the other day. 689 00:36:54,253 --> 00:36:56,630 I brought cookies for the nurse I yelled at. 690 00:36:56,631 --> 00:36:58,548 Not my finest moment. 691 00:36:58,549 --> 00:37:02,387 We should probably talk about adjusting my meds-- again. 692 00:37:03,764 --> 00:37:05,347 I think it would be best 693 00:37:05,348 --> 00:37:09,267 if your next psychiatrist reconsidered your meds. 694 00:37:09,268 --> 00:37:13,188 Next psychiatrist? I just said I was sorry. 695 00:37:13,189 --> 00:37:16,234 It won't happen again. - I know you're struggling. 696 00:37:18,820 --> 00:37:22,155 I also know about your relationship with my husband, 697 00:37:22,156 --> 00:37:24,157 and I won't be able to treat you any longer. 698 00:37:24,158 --> 00:37:27,160 I am referring you to another psychiatrist. 699 00:37:27,161 --> 00:37:29,120 I think you have me confused with somebody else. 700 00:37:29,121 --> 00:37:30,956 I can't give you what you need, Alison. 701 00:37:30,957 --> 00:37:32,374 I can't be objective. 702 00:37:32,375 --> 00:37:35,544 But I do hope you get the help you need. 703 00:37:37,673 --> 00:37:39,674 He told me he was in love with me. 704 00:37:42,803 --> 00:37:44,972 You should know that. 705 00:37:45,889 --> 00:37:47,807 Goodbye, Alison. 706 00:38:17,462 --> 00:38:22,300 Hey. So, earlier on the phone, I wasn't talking to a girl. 707 00:38:24,177 --> 00:38:26,761 I was talking to my son. He's 6 years old. 708 00:38:26,762 --> 00:38:31,475 He lives with his mom, so I don't get to see him that often. 709 00:38:33,478 --> 00:38:35,395 Well, why didn't you ever say anything? 710 00:38:35,396 --> 00:38:37,856 Part of my life unrelated to work, 711 00:38:37,857 --> 00:38:39,774 and I'd like to keep it that way. 712 00:38:39,775 --> 00:38:41,234 Yeah, man. 713 00:38:41,235 --> 00:38:44,487 Yeah. Of course. I won't say anything to anyone. 714 00:38:44,488 --> 00:38:45,822 Thank you. 715 00:38:45,823 --> 00:38:48,410 No doubt. 716 00:38:48,994 --> 00:38:50,452 I wasn't totally wrong, though. 717 00:38:50,453 --> 00:38:54,999 I mean, six years too late, but congrats on the sex. 718 00:38:59,421 --> 00:39:03,965 A world without color is not a world without emotion, 719 00:39:03,966 --> 00:39:05,842 but it does ask for a new way 720 00:39:05,843 --> 00:39:09,304 to express the feelings inside us. 721 00:39:09,305 --> 00:39:12,265 ♪ I've come to offer ♪ 722 00:39:12,266 --> 00:39:15,769 ♪ And I've come to beg ♪ 723 00:39:15,770 --> 00:39:20,024 ♪ Well, I've come to give you the key ♪ 724 00:39:22,110 --> 00:39:25,111 ♪ Spirals are spinnin' ♪ 725 00:39:25,112 --> 00:39:27,739 ♪ I'm lost in my head ♪ 726 00:39:27,740 --> 00:39:30,116 There's this new research out that they can use this enzyme 727 00:39:30,117 --> 00:39:31,951 to extend the length of telomeres in our cells. 728 00:39:31,952 --> 00:39:34,370 If it works, it may be able to slow down 729 00:39:34,371 --> 00:39:37,290 the aging process in humans-- m-maybe even reverse it. 730 00:39:37,291 --> 00:39:40,502 I mean, that's-- that's pretty cool, isn't it, Dad? 731 00:39:40,503 --> 00:39:42,128 Dad? 732 00:39:42,129 --> 00:39:45,632 Maybe that is the gift of a true artist, 733 00:39:45,633 --> 00:39:49,094 to make us feel things never felt before, 734 00:39:49,095 --> 00:39:52,348 as if showing us an unseen color. 735 00:39:59,731 --> 00:40:01,981 Hi. How are you? 736 00:40:01,982 --> 00:40:04,317 Have you seen this one? 737 00:40:04,318 --> 00:40:07,279 ♪ So give me this detour ♪ 738 00:40:09,282 --> 00:40:13,034 Wow. Gabriel really captured Wolf. 739 00:40:13,035 --> 00:40:14,661 His essence. 740 00:40:14,662 --> 00:40:16,246 It's all in the eyes. 741 00:40:16,247 --> 00:40:18,289 Yeah, I feel like they're saying something. 742 00:40:18,290 --> 00:40:21,084 Yeah. Patient in room 7 needs an LP stat. 743 00:40:21,085 --> 00:40:22,585 And while you're at it, step into their shoes 744 00:40:22,586 --> 00:40:24,129 and find out literally everything about them 745 00:40:24,130 --> 00:40:25,421 from the day they were conceived. 746 00:40:25,422 --> 00:40:27,257 I'm buying it for your birthday. 747 00:40:27,258 --> 00:40:28,842 Mm. Good thing you can't afford it. 748 00:40:28,843 --> 00:40:32,011 ♪ And I hope that you feel it ♪ 749 00:40:32,012 --> 00:40:36,518 Gabriel... this is incredible. 750 00:40:37,102 --> 00:40:38,893 Some of my best work. 751 00:40:38,894 --> 00:40:41,354 I have you to thank for that. 752 00:40:41,355 --> 00:40:43,231 For getting me back to my art. 753 00:40:43,232 --> 00:40:46,026 Well, thank you for letting me in. 754 00:40:47,487 --> 00:40:49,571 Oh. 755 00:40:49,572 --> 00:40:53,158 Gabe, come. Let me show you off. 756 00:40:53,159 --> 00:40:55,535 - Uh... - Go ahead. Take it. 757 00:40:55,536 --> 00:40:57,370 I should go entertain the masses. 758 00:40:57,371 --> 00:41:00,415 Absolutely. Enjoy. Your work deserves to be seen. 759 00:41:00,416 --> 00:41:03,209 Before you go, uh... - Slide across with your finger. 760 00:41:03,210 --> 00:41:05,630 Oh. Okay. 761 00:41:06,840 --> 00:41:09,966 Hey. 762 00:41:09,967 --> 00:41:12,386 I was hoping I would hear from you. 763 00:41:19,394 --> 00:41:22,770 Yes, Maya. I am on my way home now. 764 00:41:22,771 --> 00:41:26,441 I ordered dinner. Yes. I am in the car, literal-- 765 00:41:26,442 --> 00:41:28,736 Yes, I am!